There She Goes, Up on that Soap Box Again!
Below is something I posted for the message board community that I belong to. I didn't really intend for it to be such an outpouring but when I was done it seemed like something that I should post on my blog too.
Ladies can I ask you all something? What scares you more the fear of failure or the fear of success? Why?
For me the fear of success is more detrimental to me getting what I want. I know what happens when I fail because I stumble daily. Success is the real show stopper. I don't know what will happen when I succeed in this weight loss journey (or my job or living happily ever after, etc). The thing is, I had to finally decide that this would be one of my life's great adventures. "To achieve what I have never achieved, I must do what I have never done". These last six months have been like nothing I ever experienced but at the same time my life is going on just as it always did. The difference is that I stepped out of my comfort zone and little by little the weight has come off my body and my mind.
Last night our leader asked if we had ever thought about quitting WW. To me it was an odd question. The thought has not once popped into my head since we started this. I glanced around the room and there were heads that were nodding, some almost imperceptibly but they were. I once again had to remind myself that this is not so easy for everyone. I AM 'results not typical.' I say this all because I hope that it may touch those in the group that struggle with the day to day challenges of sticking with WW. My wish for you would be that you figure out which is holding you back, fear of success or fear of failure, then face it and defeat it. My favorite workout song is Eminem's "Loose Yourself". Sometimes when I am working out I will have it repeat a couple of times. I don't even like most rap but this song is so perfect for the journey I am on.
Look, if you had, one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted- One moment
Would you capture it, or just let it slip?
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo*
*as poignient as the lyrics are I think the "yo" is my favorite part :)
This life only comes around once ya know? I am done watching it go by. I hope you don't think I am being preachy I just really love this program and it does work and it is flexible.
We were given a hand me down treadmill on Sunday and I tested it by jogging. It started as a joke. I figured since no one else was watching I could fall on the floor gasping without making a fool of myself. The thing is I actually made it for 10 minutes without keeling over! I didn't even have rubber legs when I was finished! Wow; so I guess the joke was on me. At the weigh in last night I was down -1.4. It proves that even if I don't get a lot of activity in a week eating on plan still yields results. Yay! With a little extra effort I may make it to my 20% goal by the end of March.